Living in the past

Somehow such questions keep popping into my mind:

1. what if i had not taken up my current employment? Where will I be?

2. If I had not studied Accounts, I would not be in my current job. So what would I have studied then?

3. If I had taken up the scholarship back then, will I really end up being a teacher, and enjoy being one?

4. Why had I not taken up some engineering course where I may excel better?

5. If I had not spent my time in uni days on ECAs, I may have scored better and would have gotten my honours and maybe I won't be where I am and so ...

6. Why had I not worked harder in jc times and maybe take S papers and went overseas?

7. What if I had never accepted to having a first boyfriend back then? Then again, i didn't really accept. It just came along out of nowhere.

8. What if that first boyfriend had been another guy? Will my life be totally different now?

9. What if I had accepted some guy that came along after the break-up? Was I wrong in not accepting?

 

What if, what if... Ha, I'm just making life difficult for myself.